03-20-04 - 1:11 pm

I’ve been musing this morning on the diaries I’m privileged to read here at DiaryLand. When I discovered this vast array a few months ago I blindly entered, not knowing what to expect. What I’ve discovered surprises and disturbs me. Disturbs me in the best sense of the word. It awakens my brain, making me think and remember. I find such earnestness here, was I ever so? My heart is touched by the soulful earnestness I encounter.

I thank you all for unfolding the flowers of your life, petal, by petal. I am privileged to enter your world, to traverse the vulnerable, tender places of your heart. The pain of life astounds me as I discover the suffering inflicted by ordinary, day to day "plodding through." I am older than you. I no longer feel the pain of existence so sharply. Since I settled into this stillness of benevolent indifference it seems everything comes my way. I can’t explain why, it’s just what has happened. But you expect it all, desire it all, ache and pine for it all… and it eludes you. God bless you.

I have words of little comfort that may be meaningless to you now. Someday this advice will change your life. “Take nothing for granted.”

Love, Laugh, Revel, --Val

previous - next